why aren't my pictures showing up?

I'm sad! :-(

okay... I don't post much but I made a resolution (a bit early, granted)... but a resolution nonetheless to make more posts to my journal...

I don't post much here, but I have been really active in the Magic community's... and I've even become a moderator of a fledgling community called

it's new, but it'll catch on... I hope...

but personally I'm kinda havin it rough lately... I mean Adde and I have been having some financial troubles... and I wish that I could just magically grow a money tree in my back yard... but I guess you could say that hope is despair's little brother... so I try to just take things a day at a time...

well.. I'm going to keep this short and sweet... but to all the new people it's nice to have you on board...

till next time...

James Dean

I know I don't post much (well in my journal anyway, I'm a community whore)

but I'm doing a 

Friends Cut

I'm a lot more involved in LJ than I used to be, and I'll be posting more now that I have the time...

so in essence...

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yeah so I started playing Magic...

most fun I had in a long time that doesn't involve me without clothes...

hehe

seriously though... it's totally geek chic...

Yeah, I'm tired, I had to get up at three thirty to go to work and do the truck order that came in, and then I had to open the store... ugh...

working for mcdonalds is always an adventure. Being in management at a fast food restuarant is a hell of an interesting profession...

but anyway, they called my cell at three thirty and asked me to come in... well, since I ride my bike and it takes me half an hour to get in there when it's dark, I had to wake adde (my fiance) up and have her take me in... I hated doing that since she had to go to CTC in the morning... she's great that way, ya know, she really helps me out when I need it... I don't mean to say that generally, I just mean to say that she's great like that the whole way around, like she does it for everyone. How I got so lucky as to find a woman like her in a world like this...

so when I got to work the truck hadn't even come yet... talk about bullshit, so we waited till it got there amd once we were done I opened the store, yeah, uneventful... but infinitely stressful... ugh...

so yeah, i worked until one in the afternoon, then got off, and had to ride my bike home, well, lets just say that that wasn't the best of ideas since it was raining and I was riding a busted bike...
it took me about half an hour to get home when it only should have taken me about 15 minutes in the daylight...

so i got home, went with adde to her doctors appointment, stopped with my aunt at her salon, and then came back, got ready for work with adde, and I've been here ever since... and now I'm here, in her pet food store, updating my lj with her right behind me...

and honestly.. I'm beat, tired... I need to sleep...

ugh... I need to go, it's almost time to close... I didn't get to finish this one, but I'll get back soon, still got stuff to say.

till next time,

James

Ugh, 3:30am wake-up... not fun...

I love (hate) my job, it sucks (it's great)...

It's both... bittersweet I guess...

I work for McDonalds as a shift manager, but I'm actually a "Swing Manager," which means that they get to "Swing" my schedule as they see fit, meaning that for the next two days I open, which means I have to be there by 4:30am, and the few days after that I have the joy of working a late shift, mostly 2 to 10pm's...

it blows not being on a set sleep schedule...

I hate the fact that I have to bike to work, me being the bum and not having a car and all... I need to get on that... need to get on that, need to get on that... need to get on that... (I've been saying that for two years and I still haven't) Procrastination's a bitch.

Yeah, that's me, 22 years old, and still no wheels undar my butt... My own fault, purely, but it sucks all the same. Odd how most of the things we bitch about we have the power to control ourselves... is it a matter of laziness? No self empowerment? Who knows, perhaps one of lifes greatest mysteries...

So yeah... I'll post again soon, I actually don't have a whole lot of time which is why I haven't really said anything substantial...

I'll post something real soon...

I'm off,

James

"I walk through a snowstorm that is my past, whited out by failure and success, falling equally on the same ground, one piling on top of the other, uncaring of what has come before it" My only concern is walking alone in a storm, my biggest fear is that one single fear, being alone...

This is my first entry to my new journal...

I think I needed to break away from a journal in which I was known, in which I had to see people face to face... some things I say are too shameful, or too personal, or just plain embarrassing to have to say to people that I see every day, isn't the concept of a journal to pour out feelings and thoughts and not have to worry about being judged or being shamed by others... god knows I do enough shaming of myself...

so to all my new readers... I promise something simple, yet complicatedly uncensored... something raw and pure and me in my purest form... where I can breath and take in the reactions of people who know nothing of a situation from a side or from a standpoint that may be tainted or biased...

so here you go, my new LJ buddies...

Signed,

James